5 Weeks

I am one of those people who read up on and research just about everything. I like to be informed ; ) So I immediately downloaded a few free apps that would guide me through all the craziness that would be my next nine months.

It still hasn’t completely sunk in to me because I don’t feel that different. I have been super super tired, and want to sleep all the time. My boobs are sore (sorry any males reading), and I have had to pee a ton! But I have not been sick so far. It is hard not to think that means something is wrong. I made the mistake of going onto a forum at Babycenter.com and everyone there had had several miscarriages. So now I have a new fear to consume me… ugh! I am trying my hardest not to think about it, but I can’t help but wonder if I will really have this child. I guess it’s a normal fear.

I also feel like I look bigger and that everyone can probably tell which of course they probably can’t! The thing is only as big as an orange seed right now! Ha! I am no longer drinking caffeine, which if you know me is kind of a big deal! We were going to wait till later to tell everyone, but I am thinking that I will have to tell my best friends next week. I just can’t keep it in. I tell them everything. I haven’t talked to any of them in the past week, and I just don’t think I could talk to them and not tell them.

I went to the library and checked out a week by week pregnancy book and Jenny McCarthy’s Belly Laughs because I had heard it was good. The week by week book helps so much! I have tons of questions and no one to really talk to. I am not sure what doctor I am really going to go to. I do not really like my current OBGYN, but she gets you in quick so I have stuck with her. But she is so fast and not thorough, so I feel like I need someone who will explain things to me. I wish we had a midwife/ nurse practitioner but the only one in BG only sees Medicare patients! Dangit! I am going to stay with my current doctor until after this first appointment, then I am open to moving to someone new.