Monday, October 20, 2008

some things floating inside my head...

i have always struggled with thinking other people's lives are better or easier than mine. but lately i have noticed how much everyone seems to do this. we always try to make it sound like we had the worst time doing such and such, or that we have the hardest time financially or with dating or with jobs etc etc. It seems like we are always trying to compete with each other on who has it harder!

people with kids especially seem to do this.

anyhow, the question is WHY?? why do we do this?

its like we are always longing for something to be better than it is. no matter how great our life is, its not enough. sure my marriage is great, but my job isnt as good as yours. or sure i have lots of great friends, but i dont have a relationship with someone who loves me like you do. or sure i have a great family, but i am never as healthy as you etc etc.

it is sooo annoying. i get so annoyed when people do this. but as they say "the thing that annoys you the most in others is the thing that annoys you the most about yourself". i do this. consistently. without noticing actually. but why????

maybe it is our need for the gospel showing up in us. we will never be complete in this world. so no matter how good things are, we will long for more. and though it feels like we will never get more- eternity with Christ will be where we finally stop longing and start fully living.

doesnt that sound wierd? that we will finally start living in our afterlife... but it is my reality. and i see the evidence for it everyday in how we long for more no matter how great our lives are. now i am not talking about longing for bad situations in life to be better... i am talking about the things in our lives that are great- and yet we still think others have it better. they have to, bc there has to be something better than this... yes even than this.

a verse my husband always goes back to seems so real right now.. "He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end." Eccl. 3:11


  1. So I needed that tonight...God is and I have been having an on-going conversation about something...and that's the point he's trying to beat into my head. Reading it from your blog just reaffirms it. I so miss talking and hanging out with you.