Wednesday, October 29, 2008

i am such a slow starter

you know how people always ask in interview "are you a self starter?"?? i would usually say yes to this question. however today i realize that the answer is prob no... kinda... maybe?

once i get going i am a self starter. is that possible?? here lately i have just noticed in myself that i really put off life. i dont really mean procrastinating, i just mean doing life period. i am freeze up in the mornings and dont want to face the day. i dont want to work or see people or do any kind of responsibility. so i freeze... mope... stall... whatever you want to call it.

but then when i finally get my feet on the ground, they hit the ground running. from the outside looking in, most people would call me a hard worker and self starter. they dont get to see the stalling... the hesitation.

so now that i have noticed this i am just wondering why?? why do i do this??

now i feel i should let you know this is not an everyday occurrence. just every couple of days or weeks. but nonetheless, some days i just wake up and dont want to face my life.

does everyone do this? is everyone else just better at pushing past this or sucking it up? this is my question-- anyone got an answer??


  1. I know you posted this a year ago, but oh well. I think it's normal for us to get fed up with our lives from time to time. For me I think it's the monotony and feeling like I'm not doing things right that makes me not want to get up and face some days and I have to remind myself that I just have to suck it up and make it through it, and remember that God has my back no matter what.

  2. amen girl!

    by the way- does this h2 blog exist?? i tried to go to from your profile and got no posts.