5 Weeks

I am one of those people who read up on and research just about everything. I like to be informed ; ) So I immediately downloaded a few free apps that would guide me through all the craziness that would be my next nine months.

It still hasn’t completely sunk in to me because I don’t feel that different. I have been super super tired, and want to sleep all the time. My boobs are sore (sorry any males reading), and I have had to pee a ton! But I have not been sick so far. It is hard not to think that means something is wrong. I made the mistake of going onto a forum at Babycenter.com and everyone there had had several miscarriages. So now I have a new fear to consume me… ugh! I am trying my hardest not to think about it, but I can’t help but wonder if I will really have this child. I guess it’s a normal fear.

I also feel like I look bigger and that everyone can probably tell which of course they probably can’t! The thing is only as big as an orange seed right now! Ha! I am no longer drinking caffeine, which if you know me is kind of a big deal! We were going to wait till later to tell everyone, but I am thinking that I will have to tell my best friends next week. I just can’t keep it in. I tell them everything. I haven’t talked to any of them in the past week, and I just don’t think I could talk to them and not tell them.

I went to the library and checked out a week by week pregnancy book and Jenny McCarthy’s Belly Laughs because I had heard it was good. The week by week book helps so much! I have tons of questions and no one to really talk to. I am not sure what doctor I am really going to go to. I do not really like my current OBGYN, but she gets you in quick so I have stuck with her. But she is so fast and not thorough, so I feel like I need someone who will explain things to me. I wish we had a midwife/ nurse practitioner but the only one in BG only sees Medicare patients! Dangit! I am going to stay with my current doctor until after this first appointment, then I am open to moving to someone new.

The next few days

I decided to go to the doctor the next day to confirm it. I just felt better trusting the doc vs. a home test, and it was time for my yearly check up anyhow. And she confirmed it! So now it started to sink in to me… I was really going to have a baby! Wow! Mr.Pate and I decided we would tell our immediately family but hold off on telling anyone else right now. 

So that Friday night, we called our brothers and sisters and parents. What a strange thing to tell people! I guess I never thought about what it would be like to tell someone, but I just felt awkward. Leave it to me to feel awkward telling people fabulous news.

My sister started crying and made me cry too. My mom got super excited, and my dad seemed not surprised at all. Sheldon was pumped, Dustin was confused (we also woke him up from a nap to tell him), and their mom was thrilled. We couldn’t get a hold of Justin’s dad until Saturday (He is a baker and works nights), but he was excited too. I also told Becky & Gary, cause you know- they’re fam too.

And that was that. Now it was our little secret. My next doctor’s appointment (and first real one) would be Nov 24^th, so now we just waited.

Telling Mr.Pate

That night at class my teacher told us we would be getting out early like five times. Great! Except that he didn’t actually let us out early! The torture!! So I finally got out of class and made it home. I was a nervous wreck on the inside and couldn’t figure out what to do. You see, I had tried to think of some creative way to tell Mr.Pate all day, but I just didn’t come up with anything.

So I went and sat next to him on the couch, gave him a strange look, and then said something like “I am pregnant!” I cant even remember what I said. He smiled real big and said “Really? Awesome!” Then he hugged me a bunch. Great story right? Haha! It felt so good to finally tell someone else. 

And those pregnancy tests I took that morning? Well I just stashed them in my underwear drawer. Haha! I know some people take pictures with them and some show them to the dad, but I just didn’t really feeling like taking my picture with a pee stick. So I stashed them. Where are they now you ask?

Still there. I guess it’s time to throw them away huh?

Finding Out

Here is the deal, we had been “not preventing” for almost a year. But we were not counting days or taking temperatures or any of that stuff, so we were not hardcore trying either. Regardless, I was getting pretty concerned that maybe I wouldn’t be able to have a baby. All of the health issues I have had the past few years have not exactly left me the best candidate. In fact, I had just sent a long email to a dear friend of mine trying to explain my feelings about the whole thing, which were mixed. You just never think about not being able to have a baby when you are younger (unless you have a medical issue), instead you are just actively trying not to.

The next week I realized that I was late, but I did not want to get my hopes up so I waited several days. After four days I decided I should take a test. So I took two early one morning when Mr.Pate was opening at Starbucks… and they both came back positive. Suddenly my reactions were all mixed and crazy. Here I was alone, it was early in the morning, and I am pregnant??!!! My mind started going 1,000 miles a minute with questions and worries and excitements and plans. Ok Sabrina, so down!

So this happened to be the one day a week I have night class, therefore I wouldn’t see Mr.Pate until 8:30pm that night. Ugh! So I went to work and kept it in. I was soooo distracted that day! All day long I wondered if I was really pregnant, or if it was just a false alarm. It was the slowest.day.ever. 

P.S. The pic at the top is totally not mine. 

Hold your horses!!

 Ok people, I know that I have been a horrid blogger these last few months. And I know that I promised I had all kinds of info about my recent news to share, and I do!! I have had a horrid sinus infection this week and exhausted preggo doesnt mix well with cant breathe or think and head wants to explode girl. So I have been sleeping. LOTS! Sorry to hold out on you guys!

But you have several posts already loaded into blogger and scheduled for your enjoyment over the next few days! Enjoy!